2009: My new year

This is my first blog entry. I have friends, all from different times in my life, who blog and who have encouraged me to begin blogging. I don't know if they believe my blog will be particularly interesting or if they hope that in writing here, there will be less of my external processing or venting for them to listen to. This is the plight of the single life...coming home with unresolved issues from the day and no one there to hear them, sort them, comfort you through them or tell you to get over it. There's the dog, but his skills in these areas are somewhat limited. I have kept a diary at different times in my life, but I never quite kept up. There are quite a few volumes with large gaps of time, hard to say whether those gaps marked the brightest, darkest, busiest or simply routine times of my life. Therefore, I make no promises as to the frequency of my postings. And so, my first attempt begins.

I'm a planner, I like to have a plan, know what's next and where I'd eventually like to end up. I even know that in doing so, I might end up somewhere totally unexpected. My plans for 2009 have not gone quite as I hoped so far. It's made me realize that life is all about lessons learned (in my case, sometimes over and over again). I keep thinking, "this seems familiar, have I not been here already once or twice in my 36 years?" It's about disappointments and victories, love and loss, stability and change, trying again and moving on. And even though I know all of these things, I find myself in a place I couldn't predict I would be. I would have thought that for 10 days, my life might go as planned. Tomorrow is a new day, I'm off to make some plans...